Musings of a creative and magical mommy.

Finding My Voice

On Sunday, I pulled the three of wands. 

A card of expansion and growth, I did just that by giving my creativity a room to flourish in. 

“…a scion of new opportunities, travel, partnerships and studies — ways to expand on the things into which you have already invested time and effort…you are capable of more than you imagine!” — From the Linestrider’s Journey

Cards of expansion and growth, reminding me to find my voice.

Cards of expansion and growth, reminding me to find my voice.

Coming home from doing groceries later that day, I had an package waiting at my door — some art books I had purchased on a whim a couple of days ago. After putting away the groceries and settling the kids down for nap/quiet time, my husband and I went into the spare room (aka the LuLaRoe room) and took down the clothing racks and packed up the last of the clothing we need to send back. Room empty, I swept away the dirt and lingering energy. Then we set to work moving my office and art studio into the room. And though I think it needs a few finishing touches like an area rug and a bigger bookshelf, I have an area to create that is mine away from the chaos of the rest of the house. Bonus, I have a lot more wall space to fill — so I definitely need to do some painting in the coming weeks. 

Monday morning, I woke up and sat my desk and spent a few minutes just marveling in the fact that I had a space to call my own. My husband, too, has his own corner of this room — enough space for his computer, instruments and few other odds and ends. So essentially, this room feels “adult” — it is a place for us to come into to relax and create.

After reveling in the peace, I pulled out my cards and shuffled. Monday’s card was the two of wands — a card of independence and new ventures. 

“It is speaking up and finding your voice or setting out on your own path. … In a reading this is a card that frequently appears when you are in the early stages of a new project or at a place in your life where it is time for your voice to be heard. There is a strong streak of independence and individuality embodied with this card.” - The Linesrider’s Journey

Even my dreams are full of symbols — my subconscious encouraging me to find my voice and let my creativity have free reign. 

If I had doubts about walking away from LuLaRoe and losing that monthly income, I don’t anymore. Everything since making my decision to quit has only reassured me that I am on the right path for myself and my soul. Even my dreams are full of symbols — my subconscious encouraging me to find my voice and let my creativity have free reign. 

The funny thing is, a few days before I made the decision to quit LuLaRoe I did some witchy magic for my business in the form of a better business floor wash. The idea was to spark new life into my business and get new customers from my around my neighborhood (part of the spell involved not just washing the floors of my business area, but washing all the way to the curb to invite customers in). Just days later, I would kick LuLaRoe to the curb in order to invite more creativity into my life. I began writing a new book and spoke to my husband about getting a simple part time job and maybe even doing some creative freelancing for small businesses and entrepreneurs.

And while it remains to be seen if my new creative ventures will become my ‘better business’ — the timing of it all…well, let’s just say that was some damn powerful floor wash!

Another thing I’m doing to help find my voice? Deep soul writing.

One of the books I have currently been reading is entitled “Writing Down Your Soul” — it is about doing deep, soul-searching writing daily and learning to listen to the Voice, a higher power or your deep subconscious (whichever falls inline with your beliefs). The author, Janet Connor, writes that it takes 30 days of writing every day to create this into habit and to begin rewiring the neural pathways of the brain. As today is the 1st of August, today I begin my deep soul writing. 

So here I am. Ready to write down my soul and find my voice.

*If you need help finding your voice, consider booking a reading. A fresh perspective could be just what you need to point you on the right path. 

Alice Janell